Yesterday was my birthday.
I wasn't looking forward to it though. You see, i was raised to make a fuss of people on their birthdays. Not before or after, but on. So they feel special on that day. There's no point in giving people presents after that day coz its no longer their birthday. You know, that sort of stuff.
So i try to make people feel special on their birthdays. My family knows this and enjoy knowing that i will make a fuss of them,And i kinda expect the same from my own family.
Well all the past week i've been VERY sick with tonsilitus [so sick i dropped 5.9 kilos! or 13.7 pounds - i still can't get over that]
I knew, because i saw the signs, that i wasn't going to have a birthday as such. And i got pretty depressed about it.
For the past 3 birthdays my family has kind of minimised my birthday. I know it's a bad time of year. Roses birthday has just past and Christmas is coming right up. But i just can't accept, "Honey we just can't get you a present this year because money is tight."
Last year John gave me a scrap piece of paper with "I.O.U" written on it. Then he paid up for my Christmas present.
I stopped asking for a party years ago. Now i'm just kinda hoping everyone will forget my birthday altogether [ i'm sure it's coming next!] rather than come out with really crap excuses as to why they need to rob me of my worldly right to have a present to open on my stinkin birthday! Even my kids not only didn't even make me a card, but one of them didn't even say happy birthday to me!
I just felt [still do] disposable
I try so hard to teach my kids about the importance of giving of yourself in every situation without asking anything in return.
But this is different.
So i was really sick and miserable for my birthday.

But God hadn't forgotten me. When i got up in the morning, i walked out of the bedroom and there was a huge clap of thunder and then it poured with rain. Thunder storms are one of my all time favourite things and it was like God saying to me, "Happy birthday Sharron!"
Then it rain and thundered on and off all morning. It was awesome!
I'm glad at least [but most inportantly] God gave a hoot :o)