As hard as it is to admit, I have relapsed a little with the alcohol.
I was doing great, really great. Then i slipped up once...then a second time...then a third, and before i knew it i was thinking about it all the time again and looking for excuses to drink. [Over a period of about 3 weeks]
I need to believe that i can't drink ever again. I can't allow myself the luxury of thinking that i might slip, because then i look for the reason to slip.
I know why this happened too - I took God out of the picture. When i first gave him the drinking and quit, it was all good. Then i stopped giving it to him, and now look?
I need to go back to the basics and start again. I can't do it without God.