I don't know why [ I just know how] but one incident after another is happening between myself and other members of my church. I don't know if it's happening with other people within our church.
Little wedges are being jammed in here and there. Offence is the big one of course. I don't really let things get to me. Especially little things that aren't that important in the big picture. Everyone is different and that's what makes life interesting.
I'm not typicaly a person who suffers from pride [unless i'm driving, but that's a different story! lol] so i don't tend to react badly to other peoples bad moods, stressed out behaviour, or just little things in general.
But lately i've been taking offence at things and really taking them on board. And when i have a problem i need to talk about, i'm not going to the people within the church i usualy go to, or anyone else [in the church]. I feel like i'm alienated, but not by anything. Just..because. I'm not harbouring any resentments towards anyone. As soon as i know i'm feeling offence, i pray about it, deal with it and move on as genuinely as i honestly can. Because i know the one place Satan attacks first is the church. If he can divide the church, he can divide the church from the community etc. So i try to stay aware of that.
There is no valid reason for me to feel sensitive and distant at the moment.
I'm under some sort of spiritual attack and i know i need to be in fellowship as much as possible. But when i am in fellowship, i feel more alone and distant from everyone than ever. Hence, i'm sensitive to what's being said to me. It's a vicious circle!
I'm staying close to God and to his word, and at the moment, i think that's about all i can do.