Since my last post, things have changed quite dramaticaly! I haven't had a drink, and the journey has actualy been fairly easy. I believe that it is only because i have completly trusted in Gods grace and mercy.
I use to read about people trusting that his grace would carry them [Both in the bible and in peoples testimonies] And i never really understood how people did that or what it ment.
I would pray that God would carry me through it, and i would pray with all my heart with the limited understanding that i had.
That one fateful night changed everything. As i stated in the last entry, he waited untill i really, REALLY wanted it before he did his "Thang". And since then i have felt as if i'm spiritualy being carried along, like i'm floating in a current. And i just know that current is God's strength, not mine. Hence i'm being carried by God's [amazing] grace. It almost feels like i never had a drinking problem in the first place, and that's weird!
Remember when, a few posts ago, i said:
" There is something going on inside my heart that is hard to discribe. God is definatly doing things in me that will result in enormous changes."
Well he was. He was preparing my heart to be ready for his will, and i'm grateful.
I still haven't told anyone at church [bar one] or any freinds. I know that when something miraculous happens, we should share it as part of God's witness. I plan to get up in front of the church and tell it, But i feel the time isn't right to share it yet. And besides, i'm also worried that when i share it, various people will say stuff like, "Yea give her time. She'll cave in." So i'll leave it for a substantial amount of time for both reasons.
Since giving up, other areas in my life have been changing too. Having that big wall torn down has given me room to move forward and grow in other areas. But i'll save that for another post...