I have reached a point in my walk where God has allowed me to be broken in various areas of my life, all at once. Some i can talk about, and some i can not.
With my over eating and alcohol habits, i have reached a point of absolute hoplessness. I have no control over these areas and i've been forced into fully surrendering them to him.
There's an issue with Rose going to QLD that i have had to give solely to God as well. As it's a very confusing situation.
I've had depression for years [as long as i can remember] allthough it's been labeled with ADD till now. and my doctor now thinks i may have a form of Bi-Polar, and has started me on a treatment for that. I was very unsure about starting with the drugs as they are quite strong drugs, that could have a terrible effect if i DONT have Bi-polar. I've had to give that over to God.
And one other part of my life that i can't talk about on a public forum. Something i've done all my adult life in a certain way, and i now realise it's wrong. But i don't know how else to do it. God showed me the era, so i've given it to him to fix.
Why all at once? I don't know.
I feel very vulnerable right now. Both emotional and spiritual