I had a wonderful mothers day this year! It was just awesomely awesome!
Except the fact that Alix didn't bother ringing me for mothers day. I know that it's something really simple. But coming from Alix, it's a multiplied hurt. Alix didn't want to say happy birthday to me last year either [gee here's another"poor me"!], and she was living with us then!
I waited all day for her call. And even when i went out, the first thing i did when i came home, was check the phone for messages.
I sent her an e-mail telling her that i felt hurt that she'd forgotten me. But she didn't reply.
Pathetic i know, to harbour such a thing. But it's REALLY cut me! And for some sad reason, i don't want to pray about it yet. Instead, i want to nurse the hurt :o(

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I blacked out Alix's eyes because i didn't want her looking at me while i posted.

I haven't really been around much. I have been on a bit of a down hill run that i don't know how to get off of.

I know God has blessed me with blessing on top of blessing while i've been like this, but i can't see them. I think it's one of those situations where i won't see the blessings untill i snap out of the mind set i'm in. I know he's there and i'm still talking to him and giving things to him. When i sing the worship songs on Sunday mornings, i really mean what i'm singing.

I'm one of those people that really needs to understand what i'm feeling, identify with it, and move on away from it. At the moment i can't seem to move away from it. But i'm taking each day as it comes and hopefully God will still be waiting at home with the coffee pot on when i uncross my arms :o)